Alright....

....so I have talked things over with my two computer teachers for my Monday and Thursday classes and my ass is almost grass. I have GOT to study my butt off for my finals that are coming up on Monday and Thursday. Also, I haven't even turned in all my work. So, I am going to be absent until Friday of next week. I love you all and hope you understand. I have got to get this stuff done. For those of you have talked to me in my not so great moods in the the last several days....everything is ok and I PROMISE that just as soon as this school stuff is over....I will call you and chat and I will focus on fixing everything.....thanks again and I love you guys
Jessica

What if....

.....ever asked yourself that question? Of course you had. What if I didn't marry Nate? That is one of the big ones I ask myself. We all do it. I have been doing alot of that lately. Not about Nate....about of a lot of other things. I have decided....my mom always said I was a slow learner.....that think about what if's...dwelling on the past....is very unhealthy. These what if's have caused me to be unhappy with my life....to see it as worse than it is. What the heck is wrong with me anyway? I am so lucky. Four beautiful children....a great boyfriend....not having to work right now...I live in America....I have a wonderful family and great friends....
anyway....I want to know....does anyone else do this? about what areas of your life and what have you done...if you have....to stop it?

Sport challange....

My big kiddos had a cross country sport challange today. Neither one won, not even close but the thrill of watching them got me all pumped up. They were both running so hard, arms pumping. I just have to say how much I love being their mom. I am so blessed to have a chance to breath the same air as these little guys. I am favored by God to share my life with theirs. Whenever I am frustrated, I am going to try to remember this feeling.

Today

I love busy days. Whenever my days are busy, I feel like I am worht it. Like I am actually doing something important.
The kids had friends over last night so I feed them all breakfast. They left a little after my friend got here to visit. My friend...see pics...and I had a great time. She is an old friend and I haven't seen her in eons. Her kid and my kiddos got along great and it was so nice to see her. We have more in common than I thought....you know who you are....thanks for coming down :)
Then we went to my grandparents and made them dinner and then went out for ice cream. Kids are still in the bath as we speak. It was just a great day.....enjoy the pics.

OMG....

.....I just had to share this. My silly boyfriend is so damn cute. He had this game that is called Black Hawk Down....you know Army crap. Well, it just isn't for me, as you can imagine but he just loves it. So, the other day he is trying to get me interested in it...and I am just laughing because I think the whole thing is so silly. Well, he is like, "Look at this and look at that" and all of the sudden this alligator comes out of nowhere and he pushes his chair back like 5 feet and his eyes are the size of saucers. I laughed so hard. Let me understand this....you, Mr. Tough stuff...playing the army game where you blow up people and stuff, are scared of the alligator. It was classic.
Not to much going on here. It's getting close to the end of term and I am trying really hard to get everything I need done and studied so I don't fail my two computer classes.
Sam will be a year on the 20th. Makes me sad. Sam is my last baby and he is getting so big so fast. Anyone want to have another baby and just send it here to visit every once in awhile?

Sigh

Sorry all....I just can't seem to get my stuff together enough to do everything I need to do. If I have everything on the computer going smooth, blog, homework etc....then my house falls short. If my house is good....you get the message. What's new here? Kids are back to school which is good and bad all at the same time....school for me is going pretty well....all A's so far. Dreamboat and I are doing really well. I have decided to start really looking for a job. My unemployment doesn't run out until November but I don't want to be caught at the last minute. I would rather get one a little earlier.
I miss you guys. I miss all my friends and blogging and the truth be told....I miss working. I miss having something my very own to go to everyday that I was good at and that I got to leave at the end of the day. I know it isn't really Qwest I miss but just my friends and the job I was doing. My family all got together a couple of weeks ago....so above is a pic of the whole fam damily and then one of my Nana and me.....notice how dreamboat stands out like a soar thumb.
For those of you who have been trying to call me....my phone is freaking out again and I don't always get my calls. Don't get me wrong....I am also lazy....but some of the no convo is from my stupid phone......hope to be back on regularly.